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why? [26 Oct 2006|11:13pm] it a question i keep asking myself i love her more then everything... she thinks its just now... but it hurt when i was with her too... i loved her that much... and it made me cry sometimes... that i could love that much sometimes i just want to know whether or not she wants to get back together... i want an awnser... however... i couldnt take it if it was a no... i cant handle that thought.... i just cant... the thought of that leads me to utter oblivion... like i would be completely without hope god... i actually need her... im willing to do anything to have her i want her to be happy i really do... but is it so selfish to ask that i be the one that makes her happy? i wont break my promises.... ill change the parts of me you didnt like.... this woman is the best thing in my life.... shes my light... and ive surrounded myself in darkness... i need her to be my light.... otherwise how will i even know the darkness.... without the light the darkness is not just something... its everything... its my whole world i dont know if she understands how i feel.... i dont know if she will ever feel the same.... i would go to hell and back for her and i will love her till the end of the world please god... let this be the last time i go through this.... let this be the last relationship in my life... please... i need her... and i can never love someone like this again.... please let me die if i lose her love.... let me die before i live through that fuck im crying am i pathetic... or just depressed... i dont know 1 comment|post comment

i feel like shit [02 Sep 2006|07:58pm] i tried really hard to make today a nice day... but my girlfriend still felt like crap... i feel like utter shit because of that... and i try to make her smile but i just end up annoying her i cant do anything right and i just make things worse and when i get her home and let her take a nap so she can sleep off her headache and hopefully feel better she reminds me i never write in here and i promised i would... that i broke my promise everything ive done today has gone wrong and has made things worse and made her feel worse i feel utterly useless and that i cant do anything right i've finally written in here... now are you happy? 2 comments|post comment

agfawdf [05 Jul 2006|01:58am] yeah im gonna need to update someday 1 comment|post comment

jajaja [29 Jun 2006|12:01am] [ mood | creative ] Carla thought TakoKing was demented so... cute? anyway... yeah im excited for AX, im in love with a wonderful woman and my life going pretty good.... so yeah.... i cant complain... ill come back and rant later post comment

FEAR TAKOKING!!!! [28 Jun 2006|10:31pm] yeah i will add shit later 1 comment|post comment

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