urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fxckingzombies a page just... FOR YOU!!!!! fxckingzombies 2006-10-27T06:11:42Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fxckingzombies:1337 2006-10-27T06:11:42Z 2006-10-27T06:11:42Z it a question i keep asking myself<br /><br /><br />i love her more then everything... she thinks its just now... but it hurt when i was with her too... i loved her that much... and it made me cry sometimes... that i could love that much<br /><br /><br />sometimes i just want to know whether or not she wants to get back together... i want an awnser... however... i couldnt take it if it was a no... i cant handle that thought.... i just cant... the thought of that leads me to utter oblivion... like i would be completely without hope<br /><br />god... i actually need her... im willing to do anything to have her<br /><br />i want her to be happy i really do... but is it so selfish to ask that i be the one that makes her happy?<br /><br />i wont break my promises....<br /><br />ill change the parts of me you didnt like....<br /><br /><br />this woman is the best thing in my life.... shes my light... and ive surrounded myself in darkness... i need her to be my light.... otherwise how will i even know the darkness.... without the light the darkness is not just something... its everything... its my whole world<br /><br /><br />i dont know if she understands how i feel.... i dont know if she will ever feel the same.... <br /><br />i would go to hell and back for her<br /><br /><br />and i will love her till the end of the world<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />please god... let this be the last time i go through this.... let this be the last relationship in my life... please... i need her...<br /><br />and i can never love someone like this again....<br /><br /><br /><br />please let me die if i lose her love.... let me die before i live through that<br /><br /><br />fuck im crying<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />am i pathetic... or just depressed... i dont know urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fxckingzombies:1252 2006-09-03T03:03:01Z 2006-09-03T03:03:01Z i tried really hard to make today a nice day... but my girlfriend still felt like crap... i feel like utter shit because of that... and i try to make her smile but i just end up annoying her<br /><br />i cant do anything right and i just make things worse<br /><br /><br />and when i get her home and let her take a nap so she can sleep off her headache and hopefully feel better she reminds me i never write in here and i promised i would... that i broke my promise<br /><br /><br />everything ive done today has gone wrong and has made things worse and made her feel worse<br /><br />i feel utterly useless and that i cant do anything right<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i've finally written in here... now are you happy? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fxckingzombies:1011 2006-07-05T08:58:56Z 2006-07-05T08:58:56Z <object width="425" height="350"> <param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/G91-rB_oWDQ"></param> <embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/G91-rB_oWDQ" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="350" allowScriptAccess="never"></embed> </object> <br /><br />yeah im gonna need to update someday urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fxckingzombies:728 2006-06-29T07:05:28Z 2006-06-29T07:05:28Z Carla thought TakoKing was demented so...<br /><br />cute?<br /><br /><br /><img src="http://probertson.mushoo.net/godzillagirlidle1.gif" /><br /><br />anyway... yeah im excited for AX, im in love with a wonderful woman and my life going pretty good.... so yeah.... i cant complain... ill come back and rant later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:fxckingzombies:422 2006-06-29T05:50:33Z 2006-06-29T05:50:33Z <img src="http://probertson.mushoo.net/takoking.gif" /><br /><br />yeah i will add shit later